I’m so jealous of everyone that’s in a relationship. I want one so bad. I want a relationship where I can be happy. I want to be able to do my own things and know I’m trusted and be able to trust him. I want one that I can be myself and still be loved for who I am. I want to be able to joke around and laugh and have fun with someone who enjoys the things I love. I want to be the only girl he wants. I want to get to wake up in the morning and have someone to think about and think, “Wow I am so lucky to have him.” I feel like it’s taking forever for me to move on from my past, it’d be easier if someone actually wanted me. I guess only time will tell, but hopefully it hurries up. I don’t like being alone because it makes me think of the past and miss it. I don’t want to go back.