September 2011
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“I want someone to fall in love with me. I want someone to fall so in love with me, they can’t stand being away from me; that I only cross their mind once and I stay there all day; that when I walk out on them in the pouring rain, they run after me, screaming ‘I’m in love with you !’ and kiss me; that they’ll be there through good times and bad; that we get married one day and have kids who look just like us; that forever would never be long enough to spend together; that nothing will ever come between us; that we’ll know so much about each other, we’ll be able to know what’s on the other’s mind just by looking into their eyes; that when I’m sad and crying and I don’t know who else to turn to, they’ll hold me, just hold me and tell me everything’s going to be alright; that we’ll never, ever let each other go. But, I have no confidence in myself so I could never imagine that someone could fall so deeply in love with me. Then, you come along and you’re perfect, wonderful, brilliant and terrifying and… I love you. I love you so much. And I want to grow old with you, and tell our grandchildren how we met and were two lovesick teenagers together, and shout from the rooftops how much I love you. But, I’m scared. I’m so scared. I really think you could be the one who could fulfill all my hopes. So, I’m willing to overcome my fears, and fall in love. As long as, you, promise to catch me.”
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I’m so jealous of everyone that’s in a relationship. I want one so bad. I want a relationship where I can be happy. I want to be able to do my own things and know I’m trusted and be able to trust him. I want one that I can be myself and still be loved for who I am. I want to be able to joke around and laugh and have fun with someone who enjoys the things I love. I want to be the only girl he wants. I want to get to wake up in the morning and have someone to think about and think, “Wow I am so lucky to have him.” I feel like it’s taking forever for me to move on from my past, it’d be easier if someone actually wanted me. I guess only time will tell, but hopefully it hurries up. I don’t like being alone because it makes me think of the past and miss it. I don’t want to go back.
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50349.) I told everyone that I'm over you. I even told myself I'm over you. But I know deep inside that you'll always be part of me no matter what.
